I was able to fall back to sleep around 4 am this morning and woke up at 7 am. I usually like being down here by 7 am so I can talk to the night nurse, but I just could not make it in time. By the time I showered and checked out of my RMHouse room, it was 8 am. Fortunately, the PICU receptionist had already put my name on the room request list for the RMHouse.
Apparently Hannah had a really rough night again. The night nurse did not call me because she wanted me to sleep. Perhaps that is why I woke up at 1 am?
They are going to move up the extubation from late morning until about 30 minutes or so. Right now, she is out because she got a pentobarb and ativan dose at 7 am.
There are a lot of people milling around, passing Hannah’s door looking in. I think they are all waiting for her to start waking up again and get agitated. That way, they know that the sedation is wearing off. There have been a lot of people coming in to check her lungs, her respiratory settings, etc.
When I woke up (the second time, at 7 am), I woke up at peace with whatever happens today — trach or successful extubation. Don’t get me wrong, my anxiety level is very high, and I feel my heart in my throat! I really just want my Hannah back. I want her sweet smile, her cuddly hugs, and her face she makes when she sees me.
Thinking of you all today and hoping for the best possible outcome!
Praying for Gods will to be done, if its the trache praying for peace over it and wisdome for the doctors and nurses.
You are plastered to my thoughts today. I hope it goes better than you dared to expect!