Days becoming a blur

These past four days or so have become a total blur to me.

Daddy had to go out of state for work, and I was on my own with the three kids.   We had a shortened nursing schedule each day because Daddy also was out of town last weekend, and I needed help on Sunday.   Definitely not the ‘norm’ week for Daddy, as he usually goes out of town just a couple of days each month!

So I was responsible for everything – mornings including getting the kids up and ready for school (never fun) as well as homework, dinner, and nighttime routines.   And despite the exhaustion I felt this week, it went relatively smoothly and seamless with the kids.

Since we lost our two favorite nurses a couple of weeks ago, it has been a challenge trying to find new nurses to complete our 6-days-a-week schedule who just “fit” into our household.  So far, I think we have just a couple of days covered.   They worked 8 to 4 each day, which basically gave me enough time to get some sleep once they got here and then it was time to pick Ethan and Abby up from school and get them home.   We were all on our own for getting homework done as well as meals for the past four nights.   Usually we have a nurse here from 8 to 6 each day so there was always time for me to work with Abby on her homework as well as to start dinner.   Also, Daddy is usually here by that time so I had a partner to share this with.

Hannah has not been herself this past week.   I think it is a combination of being a bit under the weather as well as having to adjust to a bevy of new nurses.  There is a horrible sense of guilt that I feel knowing that I have to leave Hannah alone with a new nurse just so I can get some sleep after being up all night.

We even had an incident with one of the new nurses who let Hannah get so upset that she was in the beginning stages of hyperventilation.  Hannah had not been sleeping well, and she was beyond exhausted.  I only was aware of it because I happened to get a phone call that woke me up from sleep.   I heard the uneven and rapid breathing downstairs and went quickly downstairs.  It took me a while to calm her down, but I finally was able to get Hannah relaxed and she fell asleep.   It broke my  heart to see her having a definite increase of seizure activity and trying to catch her breath while she was fast asleep.

My in-laws are coming to pick Ethan and Abby up later this morning so they can have some fun with their cousins this weekend, and our only remaining regular nurse (our previous Monday nurse) is coming to take care of Hannah today  (she is good with Hannah).   Daddy is due home in about 15 hours, thank goodness!

It was crazy how much of a blur this past week was.  I don’t feel like I got anything accomplished in the house at all except for maybe washing a few dishes and med syringes.  My entire focus was making sure the kids stayed on schedule each day and were taken care of (and we even watched a movie on a school night!).   I know I took a few showers at some point during these past days, but other than that, I can’t think of anything else important LOL!

We leave for Disney World in just a couple of weeks, and I feel like I have done very little at this point!   Not only that, but we should be closing on our new house next week, and we get to start bringing stuff over and getting the new house ready to move in mid May.  Finally, Daddy and I are celebrating our 14th wedding anniversary in just 10 days – fourteen years!

We have a lot of exciting things coming up in the next two months, and I am so glad to have Daddy back home so we can start focusing on the fun and good things coming up.  He really is my partner, and wow, when he is not here, I feel like I am only a shell of myself because all of my energy is focused on the three kids!