Hannah is now laid to rest.
Her service yesterday was beautiful, heartbreaking, and just filled with overwhelming emotion. Big bouquet of pink and yellow balloons with a big Minnie and Mickey Mouse were on either side of her as well as a bright and colorful huge bouquet of flowers. The entire chapel was packed with family, friends, and even people we didn’t know.
Hannah was front and center under a beautiful quilt that was handmade for her with everything she loved the most – Minnie mouse, ladybugs, monkeys, music, giraffes… yet, it was still so hard to believe that she was in there. The casket was just so little. When we had our private family time at the beginning, it was all I could do not to scoop her up and take her out of there. All that stood between me and her was just a few inches of wood, that was all.
The rabbi did a wonderful job, infusing a little bit of religion in with a lot of introspection about Hannah’s life journey. The cantor, who was absolutely amazing, sang some of Hannah’s favorite songs including Hevenu Shalom Aleichem, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, You Lift Me Up, and the last song I sang to Hannah before she passed, You Are My Sunshine. Both my good friend and Hannah’s last nurse gave heartwarming emotional tributes.
Then I gave my tribute. I was blubbering through the whole thing, but I was able to get through it thanks to having Abigail by my side at the podium.
At the end of that part of the service, they showed the video montage of Hannah that we had created. Even though it was 7 minutes long, to me it wasn’t long enough. I wanted to see more and more pictures of my baby girl’s beautiful smile.
It was then time to take the long walk from the chapel to Hannah’s final home in the Children’s Garden in the cemetery. We all followed behind Hannah who was in a bright white hearse. The pallbearers, who were made up of Hannah’s grandfathers, her uncle Keith, and three very special friends, helped bring Hannah to her area.
As Hannah was lying there in front of me, lifted up above the hole in ground where she would be laid to rest, I couldn’t help but look around this part of the cemetery. All of these kids, these other fighters like her. Some a day old, some a few years old. All with stories likely similar to Hannah, a beautiful life taken away too soon.
Then it came time for the balloon release, which if I had to choose a favorite part (which sounds weird), this was it. Ethan and Abigail cut the balloons (which were brought out from the chapel), each bouquet with 15 pink and yellow balloons with either a huge Minnie or a huge Mickey balloon. It was Ethan and Abigail who let the balloons go into the sky and everyone in attendance watch them fly up to Hannah.
It was perfect…I kept picturing my little girl seeing all of these balloons, her favorite colors and characters, coming towards her with love, sent from her brother and sister. There were streaks of white in the sky, and I knew this had to be a sign that Hannah was there just waiting for them.
Then the hardest part of the service. They lowered Hannah into the ground, and as is in Jewish tradition, everyone who was there took a shovel of dirt and sprinkled Hannah’s basket. It is a way for everyone who loved her to help prepare her final resting place for her. Even our funeral directors, who were so touched by Hannah’s life and story, joined in.
And then it was over.
Everybody left, hopefully holding a piece of Hannah in their hearts forever.
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