It is almost like I have been in denial about this disease for so long. I mean, I knew she had it, obviously. But after looking at all the symptoms that she is developing all at once, it really got me very down and pretty depressed today. Especially now that there is this probability of communicating hydrocephalus, which apparently is common with those Gaucher patients with the D409h mutation. That is really scary.
I can see that my baby girl is falling farther and farther behind where she “should be” for her age. Dealing with orthopedics and brain MRIs now… geez.
When I was at TCH yesterday before PT, I met a mom with a 10-month-old boy who was walking (assisted) all over the waiting room. She asked me how old Hannah was, and I told her 9 months. She made the comment “Oh, I bet she is crawling all over the place, huh?” Nope, not even close. But I just said “She’s getting there!”
What am I supposed to say when people make these assumptions? They are becoming more and more frequent now that Hannah is getting older. I’m not going to tell them the truth, they are strangers. Besides, could you imagine their face if I did? “Oh, she isn’t on track because she has a fatal disease that is killing the neurons in her brain, but thank you for commenting!”
Anyone who sees Hannah could not tell that she was “sick.” Right now, if you didn’t already know she had GD23, and you saw us somewhere in public, you would never guess she was ill. She has no obvious tell-tale signs except her eyes. But most people wouldn’t connect her eyes with a serious condition like that, especially since you really wouldn’t notice unless you were looking for it.
I just hate being approached with questions that I can’t answer honestly to…I really don’t know what to say.
We started physical therapy at TCH yesterday. During her assessment last week, she was found to have “scattered skills,” meaning that her skills ranged from the 4-month level to the 8-month level. She has incredible upper boddy chest strength but incredibly poor abdominal and trunk strength, which is what is possibly causing most of her skill setbacks because she is using the wrong part of her body to do certain tasks.
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