Happy FIRST birthday, Hannah!!!

My Dearest Hannah,

Happy Birthday to you, my beautiful and courageous girl.

This time last year, you were just making your way into this world, changing my life forever, in ways that I could have never imagined.   Just looking at this picture of you resting after your delivery, right after your delivery, I see so many much.

 You were given insurmountable odds to overcome.  It just isn’t fair that someone so wonderful, precious, and charming should have to fight every day to stay alive.   I wish I could take away this horrible disease from you.

I fear every day of losing you.  I wish I could say that I don’t think about it often, but I do.  It is almost always in the forefront of my mind.  I want so much to protect you, to help you heal, to save you.

I promise you that I will do whatever I can to keep you with us, comfortable and happy, for as long as I can.  You have made such an impact in our family in just the short year you have been with us, and I can’t imagine life without you now.

There were many, many times that we weren’t sure if we would be able to celebrate your first birthday, but here we are today.  A milestone that every parent loves to see, but for me, it is almost like winning a battle in this war.  YOU MADE IT!   YOU did it!  I am so proud of you.

Every time I look into your eyes and you smile, my heart just melts.  The love that you show me, your brother, your sister, and your daddy is the biggest gift in the world.  You share that gift so often with us.

There is so much more I want to say to you today, this day, but the circumstances just don’t allow for it..  When we get back home, back to our routine, then I can really express everything I have been feeling.

Next weekend, we are going to have you big birthday party, with many of your friends, your supporters, and those that love you.  We want everyone to celebrate this huge victory with us.

I love you baby girl, my baby girl.   Happy Birthday, Hannah.

Comments

  1. This is really and truly a day to celebrate, Carrie. All of you have made it one year! Celebrate the warrior inside of Hannah and the joy she brings everyone around her. Kiss her for me too!

  2. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HANNAH!!!!! What a milestone! Hope she has a wonderful time today– best wishes!

    ~Jess

  3. Oh how sweet!!!!!!
    Happy Birthday Baby 🙂

    Hope you are doing well mom 🙂
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  4. Cat and Leo says:

    I just sent you an email through the website… but I wanted to post here too. Happy Birthday sweet Hannah from your birthday buddy, Leo! Like I said, you have already received the best gift of all – your MOM!

  5. Happy birthday Hannah and your family!

    Such a wonderful milestone.
    I hope you love your cake!!

    Hugs
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  6. Chuck Goodman says:

    Happy Birthday Hannah!

    So many people love you!
    I know your mom cherishes every day and this one is all the more special!

    Hope you have a great one!

    Doctor Chuck

  7. Happy Birthday Sweet Hannah! Meeting you has been such a blessing to me. You make me realize a lot of things about myself and you’ve definitely touched my heart. I’m so glad your mommy decided to share your life with us. Have a wonderful, wonderful birthday party!
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  8. Missy says:

    Happy Birthday, Hannah! We are praying for you daily. Hope you had a wonderful first birthday!

  9. heather says:

    so glad I could be there to help celebrate! sorry she was so tired but she bounced right back. I will send pics and videos after I get through some work…blech. xoxoxo

  10. Happy Birthday, baby Hannah!!
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  11. Happy, Happy birthday, Hannah!!! Here’s to a great celebration!
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