Archives for March 2012

Little Miss Hannah’s Legacy Brings Awareness to Rare Disease

written by Mina Frannea, Today’s Mama

Each year on Rare Disease Day, participants from around the world advocate for those who are affected by rare diseases, bringing attention to the need for improved access to treatment and for higher standards in diagnosis and care of patients. The observance of Rare Disease Day falls on the last day of February, this year on Leap Day, February 29th.

For 2012, the theme for Rare Disease Day is “Solidarity” and the slogan is “Rare But Strong Together”.  In the United States, more than 600 patient organizations, government agencies, educational institutions, clinical centers, and companies have signed on as Rare Disease Day Partners. There will be events and activities hosted all over the country to bring awareness to Rare Disease Day, including a few featured events. You can find out more about these and other ways you can help on the Rare Disease Day US website.

Hannah as a babyWhen I wrote about Rare Disease Day last year, I mentioned a little girl named Hannah who had been diagnosed with Neuronopathic Gaucher’s Disease type 2 or type 3 when she was just 5 months old.

This very rare disease impacted Hannah’s physical and neurological development as well as her life expectancy. Hannah’s parents, Carrie and Robert, did everything they could to help their daughter. They fought hard for their baby girl’s life, but little Hannah’s body finally gave out and she passed on December 4, 2011. Hannah was just 3 years old.

Hannah 3 years oldHannah touched so many people in her short life. I was one of the hundreds of people who followed Hannah’s blog and who loved her beautiful smile. With each blog post, we gained an understanding of what Hannah was experiencing and what Carrie and Robert had to do to help their daughter through medical emergencies such as putting her tracheotomy tube back in when she pulled it out.

Followers of Hannah’s blog also learned about the struggles that Carrie and Robert faced with finding professionals who could help their daughter, arranging for home nursing and various medical equipment, and simply trying to cope with raising a child who had extraordinary special needs.

Carrie and Robert have two other children, Ethan and Abby, whose needs they also needed to meet. We learned how tremendously loving Ethan and Abby were with their baby sister and how much she loved them in return. Although they didn’t complain, Carrie realizes how much having a “medically fragile sister” affected their lives on a daily basis.

While she was up caring for her daughter’s needs every night, Carrie spent hours researching Gaucher’s Disease, looking for information on available treatments, physicians who were familiar with the disease and reaching out to other families whose lives had been impacted by Gaucher’s. Through Hannah’s experience, we got to know out about other young children living with this horrible disease.

On the day that Hannah passed away, my heart broke, along with everyone else’s who had been touched by this special little girl. I cried for Hannah. I cried for her mamma and her daddy. And, I also cried for Hannah’s brother and sister who loved her so very much, and whose lives had also been impacted by the Gaucher’s monster.

Little Miss Hannah FoundationBecause Carrie and Robert understand first hand what it is like to have your family impacted by a rare disease and to honor Hannah’s memory, they have established the Little Miss Hannah Foundation (LMFH).  LMHF’s mission is to work with families who have young children with life-limiting rare diseases, undiagnosed complex medical needs, and children who have been placed in hospice or palliative care.  The foundation strives to give parents the necessary tools to empower them to meet their child’s unique medical and lifestyle needs, as well as to provide support resources and special attention for siblings of children with rare disease. To learn more about Little Miss Hannah’s legacy, visit: http://littlemisshannah.org/.

While Rare Disease Day helps bring attention to the impact of rare disease on families like Hannah’s all over the world, this important iniative needs support throughout the year.

You can rest now, Olivia

Hannah passed away three months ago today.

Woke up this morning to a text that Olivia, one of Hannah’s soul-sisters with Gaucher’s type 2, passed away.    She had just turned 3 years old a couple of days ago.  Today was to be her birthday party, a huge celebration for such a sweet little girl.

I wish I had something poignant to say right now, something that expresses how angry and how devastated I am about Olivia.  She and Hannah looked so much alike, especially when they were younger.  They really could pass as sisters.

Right now, I’m just really, really sad.

 

In search of my missing piece

My Valentine's gift from my in-laws. It sits on the wall next to my desk so I can look at it all the time.

I saw this news piece tonight about a teenager who passed away.  The mom of this girl (who has two other kids) made a comment that just hit me to my core…

I’m just trying to find a new normal without having the missing piece of our 5-piece puzzle.”

That is EXACTLY how I feel.  I’m trying to figure out this new life when all I want is to get my missing piece back!

I read my friend Sarah’s blog tonight, and even though Hannah hasn’t been gone as long as Cooper has, I can relate to every…single…thing she feels.   I could have written almost every sentence of her post.

I’m still feeling very lost at times.

I tried to get my old job as a medical transcriptionist back (I still want to work from home for Ethan and Abby).  I did it for five years before I had to go on bedrest when I was pregnant with Hannah.  My old company offered to bring me back on…if I passed the test.  I tried…I just couldn’t seem to get the hang of it.  I spent 2 hours on three 2-1/2-minute dictations, and I just could not get it.  It was as if my mind couldn’t process it anymore.   I felt defeated because it was something I was so good at a few years ago.  But I guess I’m just too rusty.

Dropping my masters courses was a good thing.  I do feel like there is a big weight lifted off my shoulders right now, even if it is only for 60 days (or I have to drop out completely).  I was thrilled though that I got a 97% on my previous class though.

Putting together the Little Miss Hannah Foundation is so much more complicated than I ever imagined.  It is truly setting up a brand new corporation and business structure!   There is just SO much that needs to be done and in so many directions.  I really just want to get to the point where we can start getting involved with families, doing what I know in my heart  is Hannah’s legacy, but there is just all these other important projects that must be done before we even get to that.

Cuddling on me, 2011

You know, it is hard knowing that I need to figure out a new “normal” life for me when I am fighting so dang hard wishing Hannah was back with me.  I don’t want a new normal, and I may be childish, but I feel like throwing myself down on the ground and throwing a tantrum yelling “I don’t wanna do it!”

When I am alone in bed or on the couch, I try so hard to remember how it felt to cuddle with her.  Trying to remember where she put her arms and legs on me.  Trying to remember how her skin felt and how she smelled.  It is getting harder and harder to remember now.   Trying to remember her smile!

I find myself looking for pictures of her lying on me just so I can at least see how she was even if I can’t feel her anymore.

Just sucks.