Archives for August 2009

I’ve become much more aware recently about the widening gap between Hannah’s ability and other children her age.  When the MDCP nurse asked me if she follows commands and understands what we say, I just shook my head. 

There is just ONE command that Hannah recognizes and will respond to.  “Uppies.”  If I say “do you want uppies?” a few times, she will actually get excited and put her arms up.  OMG, does my heart soar when she does this!  This is the only interaction she really does with us where we know she understands us.  Anything else, well, she doesn’t seem to either understand or respond to.

I was reading Melissa’s latest post about Kyle, a little boy with Hannah’s disease who is just a month older than her.   

But still, he’s like a baby who’s not growing up. He should be running all over the place, playing on the grass with his brother and sister, or toddling through the house in footie jammies. Instead, at 14 months old he’s still stuck in his exersaucer watching everyone else have fun. It’s incredibly heart-breaking, but I’m determined to get him going.

I could have written this point, word for word. 

It is almost like Hannah is stuck in a perpetual time warp that keeps her at the 6- to 9-month old level developmentally.  She is trying so hard, and she really doesn’t know any different, which I thank god for.   She can’t go from a lying to sitting position or really crawl to where she wants to go (she gets winded within a few feet). 

But then, every once in a while, she will spark with something just so “advanced” for her, like her walker.   That just blows us away!

For me, I think the hardest thing is not knowing *if* she will learn certain skills, such as understanding communication or really moving (like crawling or walking on her own).   Even though I LOVE sharing about the skills and advancements she does make, there are just so many that she hasn’t hit yet or just doesn’t seem to get.  That’s why I relish and want to scream to the world about the ones she does make.

I do wonder… will she ever be able to call me “Mama?”

Hannah and I met with a nurse from the DADS (Department of Aging and Disability Services) office regarding getting Hannah on the MDCP (Medically Dependent Children’s Program) program sooner than the 9 years that the waiting list is currently at.  We are hoping that she will qualify for a “waiver” program that will allow us to take advantage of some of the services within months instead of years.

It was basically just an initial intake of Hannah’s condition, symptoms, etc.  However, I found myself saying “No” to a lot of the questions (which actually  made me happy) such as:
~ Has Hannah ever been hospitalized outside of birth?  Nope.
~ Does Hannah have any medical equipment?  Nope, well, orthotics, but none of the big stuff.
~ Does Hannah require specialized 24-hour care?  Nope.

Then, I started thinking that maybe Hannah wasn’t “sick enough” for this program?  Wouldn’t that be a kicker?  The nurse does seem to think she will qualify.  But we will find out in a month or so, as we have more visits, and our pediatrician has some paperwork to do.

Then, we started going through the list of symptoms that Hannah currently has based on the NIH report, Dr. Schiffman’s report, and our pediatrician…

neuronopathic Gaucher Disease
hypotonia
supranuclear gaze palsy
brainstem dysfunction
ocular motor apraxia
global developmental delays
hepatosplenomegaly
vocal cord paresis
atrial septal defect
decreased blink reflex
slight eyelid retraction
interstitial lung disease
sensory feeding problems
increased startled reflex
diffuse ligamentous laxity
genu valgus abnormality
IgA deficiency

Wow.  To see it all in one place is almost surreal.  But then I look at Hannah, and I just don’t see this?  I see a some of them, but I really just see an adorable little girl who is happy and loving and likes to be involved.  Anyone else who sees her really doesn’t see many of these.  She doesn’t come across as a 17-symptom-plus baby — she is just a sweet 12-month-old with a big smile.

I see the list.  But it really is just that.  A list.  It isn’t “my Hannah.”  I understand what they mean by “the disease doesn’t define the person,” it is just what she has.  Hannah is just so much more than her disease.  I love that about her.

Hannah turned 13 months old yesterday!!   I would have posted, but it has been crazy with Ethan and Abigail starting school this week.

We saw Dr. B., her pediatrician, today.  We actually haven’t seen him in his office in two months!  We went from visits every two weeks to every month.  Now we are finally at every 2 months! 

For the important stuff, her numbers are in…

Height:  29-3/4 inches (1 inch growth since NIH in mid July) – 50th percentile
Weight:  20 lb 9 oz (9 oz gain from the NIH in mid July) – 25th to 50th percentile
Head circumference:  19″ – stable! – >97th percentile

No failure to thrive issues here! 

We are still having major feeding issues, but we are going to start incorporating even more baby food into her bottles (along with still attempting to feed her by mouth often), less formula, and start introducing whole milk.   We are also meeting with the nutritionalist in a few weeks, which will really help us fine tune her eating so we can try and avoid a feeding tube since she is going to start requiring more calories now that she is more active.

She also got her first of two flu shots today along with 2 of the recommended 12-month immunizations.  Dr. B. is being more cautious about what immunizations she gets and when, which I appreciate. 

And again — TWO months until our next follow up visit!

After the NIH visit, it seemed like we slowed down quite a bit when it came to seeing doctors. After all, they did do almost every test in the book! But now it is time to follow up on their findings and get some answers…

This doesn’t include Hannah’s therapies that are currently 3 times a week and her Cerezyme treatments every other week!

8/26 – Pediatrician visit (haven’t seen him in two months – well, outside of her birthday party!)
8/31 – Otolaryngology, Dr. Roy, second opinion and expert, regarding Hannah’s vocal cord paresis
9/9 – Pulmonology, Dr. Vece, regarding Hannah’s vocal cord weakness (paresis)
9/14 – Otolaryngology, Dr. Larrier, only if Dr. Roy agrees with her assessment
9/16 – Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation, Dr. Woodbury, to go over Hannah’s therapy plan
9/22 – Nutritionalist, to make sure Hannah is getting what she needs since we still aren’t on solids yet
10/13 – Sedated Echocardiogram, to look at Hannah’s atrial septal defect
10/14 – Cardiology, Dr. Jeffreys, to go over the echocardiogram results
10/29 – NeuroOpthalmology, Dr. Edmund — however, I may cancel that since we are going back to the NIH soon