One month

I just looked at the calendar.   January 4th.  Hannah passed away one month ago, December 4th. Has it only been a month?   Has it been a month already?   I know that contradicts itself, but in some ways it seems like she hasn’t been gone for an entire month and in other ways […]

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Meet our Mickey

After we had to put down Molly, our 14-year-old Beagle, a few months ago, I had decided that it was going to be a long while before we got another dog.   We still had our old man, our 14-year-old cairn terrier, Kenny (Chesney), and our 4-year-old cat, Snowball. And then I lost Hannah, and […]

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Tattoo Permanence

I was never, ever into tattoos.  Never.  It just was not my thing.  Four years ago, if you asked me if I would ever get a tattoo, the answer would be “never.” Never say never…On December 12th, 2011, the day after Hannah’s funeral, I got a tattoo. I remember soon after Grey passed away, his […]

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Goodbye 2011

How I really feel about it is “Goodbye 2011, don’t let the door hit your ass on the way out!”    If you weigh the good times with the bad times, the bad definitely overshadow the good. Last year, I did a summary of first posts for each of the months of 2010.   I […]

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Made it through

We made it through the holidays.  I did better than I thought I would, honestly. I ended up flaking on Christmas Eve activities with family because I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.  I felt this heavy load on my chest of sadness, and the thought of having to be “on” and “festive” while […]

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Still trying

I’m still having a terribly hard time getting into the holiday spirit.   I’m going through the motions, but I just am not feeling it.  I want to feel it, I really do. This past week has actually been harder than the week before.  I think that it is now really sinking in more and […]

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